happy... sad.... sad.....

ever since last Tuesday, my eyes fill up with tears every now and then. The most I've cried must've been Friday. The mere thought of it makes me sad. tears start to well up in my eyes. and i'd go away for a while, hide, and compose myself.

its not like im leaving. or somebody died. no, its not that. in fact, i should be happy - my niece was born last wednesday! :)

its just that... i made a decision last Tuesday, told my friend(s) about it, and they got sad. which made me sad. :( and come Friday, it seemed.. so final. it was then that reality sunk in. i was trying to hold back the tears, but i cant. i try to smile and laugh, being the "bubbly" person that they know me to be (well, occassionally becoming a "she-huk" when im tired and lack sleep)..

*cmon, tina! its an opportunity you must take now! the thing you left behind will be something to aspire to reach in the future!*

ok, ok. enough of this crap. but. howell. let's see. *sad smile* i still cant help but be sad.

half a month to go before everything's final.